In light of all of this, and in case someone else is struggling this weekend, I wanted to share my notes from the Abundance conference. Skim through or read carefully, but let the words seep in because you might need them more than you even realize, as I did.
"King of the World"
Natalie Grant (not to be confused with AMY Grant) did a concert on Friday night. She sang lots of beautiful songs, but one absolutely captivated me and I know it was because I am living right in the middle of what she was talking about in the song. I am especially in need of this song every time I think about the impending Presidential election, because quite frankly it is scaring me absolutely to death. The chorus goes like this:
"When did I forget that you've always been the king of the world?
I try to take life back right out of the hands of the king of the world
How could I make you so small
When you're the one who holds it all
When did I forget that you've always been the king of the world?"
Lydia is a woman probably much like us. On the Sabbath, she was sitting with her friends by the river. She had a job-- a dealer in purple cloth. She had a household, she had houseguests. She had religious practices and a full life. However, something was missing for her. When Paul told her about Jesus, she couldn't resist.
***I came home this weekend with two major takeaways. There was a recurring theme at this conference of getting into His word and into prayer. This goes perfectly hand in hand with what I feel like our new Pastor and his sweet wife have been modeling for us at South Cleveland. I was deeply convicted when Lysa Terkeurst said that she always checked social media and email and voicemail every morning before spending time with the Lord until she realized that, when squeezed, whatever she had saturated herself in is what came out. Her phrase, "You must exchange whispers with God before shouts with the world" just about knocked me over. I am making a vow to spend more time in His word and in communion with Him. This is an area I have struggled with for as long as I can remember and there just isn't an excuse. The other message that struck me deeply were the reminders about reaction and perspective. I am probably the world's worst about tunnel vision, about seeing my surroundings through my human eyes instead of allowing God to show me His view. That is something else I'm going to focus on over the coming months.